Friday, December 23, 2011

Well, I guess I just have to suck it up, and deal with it

Well, I guess I just have to suck it up, and deal with it.

I have to say, that I'm grateful for any assistance I've had since my accident. Knowing that I'm pretty much a loner all my life, it's hard to be depended on other people, especially my family.

Well, I guess I just have to suck it up, and deal with it.

Finding out that my accident wasn't as bad as first predicted, being moved out of my apartment, with no alternative place to live, having all my crochet work sold in one day at a flea market, just to get rid of it, so they don't have to bring anything back. Along with most of my yarn, paper patterns, magazines, and various items that were deemed 'extra stuff that I didn't need',would seemed 'reasonable, right?

Well, I guess I just have to suck it up, and deal with it.

Knowing that my family, after years of distance(mostly on my part), feels that they haven't been satisfied with how I lived my life, and that now, since I'm between a rock and a hard place, they feel they know not only they know what's best for me, but feel to need to determine what I should or shouldn't do,what I need or don't, and that I need to be close to the family.

OK, here's how I see it. simply put, you can't fit a square peg in a round hole. I am who I am. I'm a grown ass man who has lived and survived on my own and by myself since I was 21. I could care less what other people, family included, thinks of me or how I live my life. You can't tell me that if the shoe was on the other's foot you'd know how I feel, well, if you did, most people either never realized it, or, admit to it.

I hurt my feet, not my mind. I'm not some feeble person that needs to be taken care for. Needing help doesn't mean taking over my life, such as it is. My life is my life, not anyone else's. I determine how I live my life. I would never assume to tell anyone else how to live theirs, no matter how much I may disapprove.

  Well, I guess I just have to suck it up, and deal with it.

So now I have to find a new place, get my stuff in it, and accept that 'what I have is what I'm left with'. Well, I guess I just have to suck it up, and deal with it.

As far as my family, well, I've never been a 'family' type of guy. I've come to understand it, and accepted it. I know my family doesn't agree, but...

Well, I guess they'll just have to suck it up, and deal with it.